It is a sad thing to see people at my age don't know about Jesus, commit suicide and torture themselves.

Had an emotional week, how would I say? hmmm yes is emotional, I don't really like to being like this of course but I do wonder why people will feel this way and now I only know. It happens when you're seeing something and especially when you're all alone.

Seeing FGBJB TEENz GAP photos being uploaded day to day, it reminds me of those days I went to overseas mission trips as well. Seeing those youngsters that I don't know who are they and my peers/sisters/leaders being captured in the photos, sigh I think I can see a big GAP between me and them. Where should I go when I go back next time...

I know I'm thinking too far and too much, but I do worry the next phase of life when I go back. I'm stuck in between the working adult and also TEENz, the youngsters are too small and I'm getting old but not that very old.

I do feel I'm small sometimes, I know I'm thinking too much and started to be emotional, but I feel the limitations too. I cannot join mission trip, cannot attend TEENz Camp, cannot go vacation with my gangs in JB. KTAR holiday is just too weird compare to other colleges, that is why I'm gonna miss out the time catching up with my friends who are coming back from Aussie for holiday.

I miss my close friends, I miss home and I miss everything in JB.

Seriously, I don't even feel like to stay one more day in Kampar. I don't like to go for classes, I don't like to see classmates acting and see the bad news flying around the facebook. Feel like to throw my face at them, but Jesus taught us earlier on we shouldn't against them whatever they did to us. Finally, I think I break the record.

I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I'm trying my best to withdraw myself from the place and people that I don't want to see, this is to protect myself from evil and sins.

Ahhh.. What a long entry, super long time didn't blog in English and my writing is still smooth? hahaha